Confusion: does it require a Confession?

Not having a goal in life leads to confusion... with most of the important decisions in life!

I have no place of my own; physically and in people's lives, except you( my love )!

I don't know where to go... I keep screwing up stuff.. and it hurts... but I still am true to myself ( i think )!

Now;I have goals.. the only thing is that I am not doing anything about it!! I should start!!! when???????

Ok..sorry if i have confused you.. but I am sort of thinking in print!! 

BTW.. I am in love.. and that is not going to change.. ( again.... I think )

Rishikesh!!

 A wonderful trip with loved ones, to a fantastic place!! Loads of adventure and loads of bonding!! Thats what it was!!! I think everyone must go to Rishikesh at least once in their lifetime!!!

the silvery white sand beach by the river Ganges@our camp

The tents in which we lived in, maintained really well..!

The river Ganges, we were right in middle of the river during our Rafting session!!

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       the simple beauty of the place with peace and tranquility!

trying something stupid! with poo's floaters! lol!!

The River Rafting Team!! :D

DRAMA is our middle name!! :P

One of my best trips so far!!

So, what have you been doing lately?? ;-)

Delhi in December!!

Not like I am really busy or something, I was just on a read only phase for quite sometime. But as I woke up this morning I missed writing sooo much,that I was like - Lets get back with a Bang!! Well, no bang happening here but ya, I am writing and I love it!

I am on a long holiday from work!! :D By long, I mean 10 days off work including three weekends! So, Yaay Me!! There were a few work things to sort out with my manager as he sits in Delhi, but that is not happening apparently!! I hope the IBM Manager Feedback program comes back quickly!! I need to give serious Feedback!! :P

But this has been a beautiful trip, uptil now! Tonight is a friend's wedding, and he being a very close friend of mine, I am all excited!! Many of my friends are getting hitched, its like a wedding season! I am scared my parents will start bugging me of that... But its a very nice and festive season around!!

I finished reading the Twilight series, Finally!! And I loved it!!! :D Team Edward till the end of time!!!









Last But not the least, if i was in love before, I don't know how to put what I am in now, in words! Its simply beautiful. Why can't I be here, with him, forever! :) Wishful thinking!! We went to an amazing fort, this weekend and its raw beauty is soo romantic! And to have him around me, was even better!!

ONE YEAR!

17 November 2008 - was a bright Monday morning!! I was sooo excited

from the night before, that I couldn't sleep all night. I was on a conference call with my friends till about 3-4 in the morning [ which was a usual thing for me .. ] and then laid on my bed awake till my alarm at 6:40 a.m started playing my favorite song.

 I woke up, got dressed and left home on my "Activa"  zooming into the cold gusts of wind on a Cold but bright Bangalore Morning. 

I reached on-time. Nervous, with butterflies in my stomach, but a BIG SMILE on my face I entered the premises and saw a big board on the wall. IBM India Pvt. Ltd. My first day at work was this very day last year. 

IBM has been a wonderful journey and the last one year has been superlative - well obviously rite? who wouldn't like a job where we got paid for the first two months just to introduce ourselves to each other n have fun?? :)!! That's what we did!

We were called "Vitality Hires" - and I personally had no idea how that would impact my stay here, but in those initial days, it was considered something really special.

It was very unusual, the experiences we had, during our training days. We had an Outward - bound learning and team-building stints at PEGASUS. 20 people of which almost everyone was new to each other were sent to a 2 day camp were there were loads of tasks, planning and Bonding that happened!

And post that we had 6 months of rigorous training on all the services, service product lines, brands, sub brands in IBM. We met leaders of IBM not only from India, but also leaders from Asia and Australia. From Servers to Software, From Applications to services we were shown a view of IBM which included  everything but still wasn't enough.

I think the best part of the whole journey was the friends we made. We have a kind of connect with each other which is in-explainable!! I love them to bits and today when all of us are distributed across the country, I miss the presence of each and everyone who isn't with me in Mumbai. And for those who're here - my life here has been wonderful mainly mainly because of them!!!

Those funny/crazy outings in Bangalore, the tea-breaks and lunch breaks in office, cribbing about staying late inside office and staying out for looong hours after office, the "booze" parties, the "only girls" parties, the birthday surprises, the fights, the arguments, the hugs every morning and every evening, the looong conversations by the 6th floor window, the pictures we clicked without any rhyme or reason, the stay-overs(for me), the bike rides, the skits, the videos, the "presentations", victory, failure, bliss, disappointment, the "Sametime" conversations.... Every single thing in that happened during those days - I miss them!! But I am glad I got to do all these things!!

It doesn't seem like a long time, when, I think of all the things that has happened this year on a personal and a career front. Well this was the only year I had a career - so... :) Thank you IBM! for everything, but most importantly for the friends it gave me!!

Love you guys Loads!!!!!

You really want to know me?

This is a tag blog! I liked this for reasons unfathomable even to me!!

I stole it from Navneet's Blog!! :) Here it is:

LAST TIMES…

1. Last beverage:  my glass of water!

2. Last phone call: Yeshas & Swati

3. Last text message from : <3 Ankur <3

4. Last song you listened to: Truly Madly Deeply - ( my playlist was on shuffle )

5. Last time you cried: Last Saturday - 7 November :-)

HAVE YOU EVER...

6. Dated someone twice: Yes

7. Been cheated on? : No.. ( Can I be mean and say Not Yet?? ;) )

8. Kissed someone & regretted it?: Hmmm.. Yes.

9. Lost someone special? Yes

10. Been depressed? O Yes!!

11. Been drunk and threw up? Been drunk, No, not as drunk I wanted to be; threw up, Yes, in "our Vegas"

LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:

12. Black

13. White

14. Purple

15. Red

:) :D :P :* :)

FIRSTS :

16. Made new friends: PP - Pooj [we're Day 0 friends ] ( the same one I went to GOA with )

17. Fallen out of love: Yes... But where it really matters I fell right back in!!

18. Laughed until you cried: When dad used t tickle me!! ( he has some special way of doing it )

19. Met someone who changed you: Lots of people have changed me - in bits and pieces !!

20. Found out who your true friends were: School Friends, Pre University Friends (SKARD) - some of the members in that atleast.

21. Found out someone was talking about you: Yes! and when it is your best friend - not so good! [All's well now]

HAVE YOU:

22. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Yes, I have.

23. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Well, apart from my blog friends, 98% of the people I know on Facebook, I know in real life!!

24. How many kids do you want to have: One or Two.

25. Do you have any pets: No, Not yet!

26. Do you want to change your name: When I was a kid; Now I don't!!

27. What did you do for your last birthday: Went to work, and had a party with loved ones!!! <3 <3 <3

28.What time did you wake up today: 07:40 a.m

29. What were you doing at midnight last night: Multi-tasking! ;) I was On Facebook and reading Blogs on my Favorites and talking over the phone!

30. Name something you CANNOT wait for : To Lose Weight!!!!!!

31. Last time you saw your father: 02 November 2009 :)

32. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: My Weight - yes i have weight issues!!

33. Most visited web page: Facebook, Blogger(obv) and Gmail!!

WHAT'S YOUR :

34. Name: Deepika

35. Nicknames: Deeps, Deepu, Dippy Sauce, D!

36. Zodiac sign: Aquarius

37. Male or female or transgender : Female - very much so!

38. Elementary: M.E.S KK, B'lore

39. Colleges: Atria Institute of Technology

40. Hair color: Black... :)

41. Long or short: Used to be shoulder length, now is a couple of inches below the shoulder

42. Height: 5'3.5 ( Five feet and three n a half inches )

43. Do you have a crush on someone? Which someone are you talking about??? No :)

44. Ever been in love? If this is what Love is, Yes!! :)

45. Piercings? Earlobes!! Wish I had one on my face, but don't think I'll get the permission!

46. Tattoos? I will get it, one day!

47. Righty or lefty: Righty ( if that is a word )

48. First surgery: None, Yet!

49. First piercing: 12 days after I was born!

50. First best friend: Bhavana Mutangi ( I Have no idea where she is today; but we were best friends in pre-school and first grade)

51. First sport you loved: Swimming :)

52. First pet : None!! :(

53. First vacation: Mumbai!!!! When I was less than one!! ;-)

54. First concert: Bryan Adams in Bangalore.

55. First crush: One of the care takers in Kodaikanal ( he had long hair and was ccute - I was in class 4 )

56. Eating: Chocolates, Chicken, Cakes and Food made by my Mom!!

57. Drink: Variety - thats the spice of life, innit?

58. I'm about to: Start working for the day!! :P

60. Waiting for: The evening, its Friday!! And my friends from Pune are here!!! :D Partayyyy!!

YOUR FUTURE

61. Want kids? Yes!!!

62. Want to get married? Yes and to my special someone!

63. Careers in mind? Now, IBM, Post MBA - Some nice creative job - In the end, I want to be a dance teacher!! :)

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?

64. Lips or eyes: Eyes ( Any Sex )

65. Hugs or kisses: Hugs

66. Shorter or taller: Taller :)

67. Older or Younger: Both! Older actually!

68. Romantic or spontaneous: this shouldn't be a question, It should be Romantic AND Spontaneous

69. Nice stomach or nice arms: Nice Arms

70. Sensitive or loud: Loud when he should be, sensitive when he should be!

71. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship! :)

72. Trouble maker or hesitant: Neither.. ;)

HAVE YOU EVER :

73. Kissed a stranger: Hmmm... Yes!

74. Lost glasses/contacts: No :)

75. Been on a blind date? : Does meeting a guy you  know online count?

76. Broken some one's heart: Yes :-(... but joined it right back!! :P

77. Had your own heart broken: Maybe, I don't know!

78. Been arrested: No.. :)

79. Turned someone down: Yes

80. Cried when someone died: YES

81. Liked a friend that is a girl?: hmmm.. NO!! ;)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

81. Yourself: I am trying to.

82. Miracles: Unfortunately, yes! :)

83. God: Sometimes :)

84. Love at first sight: No.. yes.. no, maybe No!

85. Heaven: Yes..

86. Santa Claus: Yes.. :)

87. Kiss on the first date? : No

88. Angels: Yes

89. Devils: If there is a God, then Yes! :)

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

90. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes! And I am so far! :(

91. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? No...

92. Wanted to kill someone ever? : Yes.. Myself.. :P

93. Among your blog mates, whom would you like to kiss? I like this question, I don't think I'll answer though.. :) :P

94. Committed a blunder and regretted later? Yes, but then regretted regretting it.. :P

95. Wanted to steal you friend's boyfriend / girlfriend? : Yes, Sort of!

ASSOCIATE WITH SOMETHING YOU WEAR :

96. White: Dupatta / Stole

97. Black: Everything - Inside out! :P

98. Red: my someone's favorite color (on me)

99. Pink: My favorite cotton dress!! :)

You Can take this tag up, if you like, I am not tagging anyone specific!

Enjoy!! Have a lovely weekend!! :D