Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Star Light, Star Bright, You make me feel alright!

When you're at crossroads in life, and nothing seems to be going your way, where is the first place you look? My first choice didn't take my call, and so reluctantly I called home. I have always wanted mom and dad to see me as a strong, brave person; So to call them at one of my weakest was difficult. I think living away from home has all pros and no cons... ( who am i kidding?? Living with parents, home cooked meals, unconditional love, no paying rent!! ;-) its all cons for living alone. :P )

Well, for all the Pros for living on my own, one of them is that, however unreasonable you are, or stupid you feel, the parents only make you feel better! Now if it was me at home, and I went crying to them about something I had done, or something I hadn't done, the reactions would've been so different!

So, I turn to daddy for help, and he does a wonderful job of hand-holding and bringing me to the world of OKAYness! And I don't know if ANYone, I mean, anyONE other than him would have had the same effect.
[Thanks Dad, Louve you!!! ]

This happened a couple of months ago, and my view towards certain stuff has shifted. I have always believed in giving my hundered percent in everything I do, and more often than not, I do!

In a previous post I mentioned, I need to learn to prioritze my life. Because there are sooo many unnecessary things I do; And so many things which ae necessary things which I blindly avoid. Like, Its high time I start working out again, I am just unable to get up early in the morning! [ what with sleeping at 3 - 4 a.m ]

I also have to re-start studying; for MBA admissions. And I need to do really well in those exams. But what am I doing instead? Giving my all to my not so great job! And getting involved in unnecessary discussions. The worst part is I know what I am supposed to do and what I am not supposed to; but still why don't I?

I will start next week onwards. Both workout and studies! :) Why? Coz this weekend I am going Home sweet Home to meet my Mommy and Daddy dearest!! O goodness, I miss them sooo much!! How can someone live without their loved ones around them?? :D [don't read the beginning of the blog :P] Once I'm back, I'll start with being Organized!! :D

So, this girl is all shiny and bright because of her Star..!! Who's shining.. and bringing light to her life. Love you daddy!! Love you Mommy!! Other than biological reasons too, I wouldn't have been me, if it wasn't for you two.

And and and... This Year is their 25th i.e Silver Jubilee Wedding Anniversary!! So there's going to be loads of Celebration this year!!! :D :D:D

All you happy people out there - Loads of Hugs, Kisses and Love!!! Hope all your Star Light make you Feel Alrite!!!!!!

Thursday, March 25, 2010


According to Wikipedia : "In the case of uncertaintyexpectation is what is considered the most likely to happen. An expectation, which is a belief that is centred on the future, may or may not be realistic. A less advantageous result gives rise to the emotion of disappointment. If something happens that is not at all expected it is a surprise. An expectation about the behavior or performance of another person, expressed to that person, may have the nature of a strong request, or an order."

What does Expectation mean to you? It can be the smallest thing, or something really huge. I learned something very early in life-do NOT expect anything from anyone. ANYONE. And I didn't. 

Over the years,there were people who became close to me, and expectations are normal in any relationship. Even with parents, not being able to do well in school/ college meant we didn't live upto their expectations. And somewhere, I knew I hadn't done as well in academics as my dad would have wanted me to.  When I learnt the lesson of not expecting anything from anyone, I also knew, I had to live upto every single expectation people I love had of me.   

So, it was tough for me; living up to people's expectations. If you notice, more often than not, people will always, ALWAYS remember the ONE thing you didn't do for them, (like here), and very conveniently forget the million things which you have actually done for them. And then there are usually two things that happen! Either the person judges you in a bad way for not living up to their expectations, or, you start going on this huge horrible guilt trip of your own. 

I used to have loads and loads of friends. Today I have a select few, and sometimes I'm glad about the select few coz' its them that matter; but why does it hurt, when I see my other friends, who were very good friends move away? Am I doing something wrong? Or is that normal? Do i push too hard to be friends with some people that I ignore others? [ i think NOT] 

Why am I finding it difficult to be happy, why does it have to hurt. Loads of introspection leads to me to think of it as - I do it to myself.  But the question is WHY??

And then there's also that, when you trust someone, and they don't stand by that.

One of my Favorite trust quote is:


Neat huh?? ;-) 

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

One Tree Hill!!

I started watching One Tree Hill, the same time I posted my previous post. And since then I haven't done much more in my free time with the laptop! Hence all blame for no new posts goes solely to OTH!

But my dear friend who gave me OTH gave me season one, two, six and seven!! He forgot to give me 3-4-5!! 

I sat and read through everything available on these seasons,but it isn't the same as watching it! I tried to figure out what might have happened, in the previous seasons. Like, who's Miah, or Lindsey, Or, Chase.. and what happened to Peyton's real mom ( i know she died of cancer, but what happened?? ), Why everyone hates Victoria Davis so much? and most importantly... Why did Dan kill Keith and how!! 

I must be sounding so shallow in the above portion, right? I can't really help it. I think this is the power teen drama has over me! My weakness of sorts. It was the same, or probably worse with Dawson's Creek! ( but you already knew that ) Is this the same for many people, or is it just me??

I am watching the 7th season of OTH now, and it doesn't have Lucas(Chad Michael Murray - Yummy) n Peyton. I thought I'd lose interest, coz i watched it only, only for Lucas! but na.. I still watch it. I sit all night through! ( Bad me, I know) I have to watch it!! When it was HIMYM; it was a similar craziness, but wasn't the same, coz how ever much I loved barney, it was never the same way I love Luke!! Or I loved Dawson n Pacey. ( Chad was in DC too.. yummmm ).

I am sounding so unlike myself in this post; but i think it is a OTH after effect. I sometimes talk like Peyton, or even Brooke and it creeps me out!! O ya, I forgot to mention, but I so love Jamie Lucas Scott too.. he is simply adorable!!!!

Isn't he yummmmy???

Nevertheless, I like it, and thats me..! And this is my blog!! and I can write about whatever I want!!! :D

Aaaahhh!! Miss writing sooo much!! :D

I just re-read it! Eew - do i really talk like this???