That thing you do!

You, doing that thing you do... Breaking my heart into a million pieces, Like you always do!

And you, don't mean to be Cruel, You never even knew about the heartache, I've been going through...

                     

Friends, life, happiness to me, somehow are all synonymous. I tend to give them equal importance. And its a good thing! :)

When life has so much to give, why do we still stop to look at what we are getting. Everyday, every second is a bonus - a blessing. So, when they said the world was ending, I was looking forward to it; coz every moment after that was a bonus and it was perfect to end at that time.

In a place, where I don't want anything negative to affect me, in anyway. There is no point in being unhappy.
Like dad says, everything happens for the good, so find the Aanandam - and you'll attain the Paramaanandam. Peace.

Will continue in a bit. Right now, I just want this published!



Everyone's definition of love is different....the way a person loves u is the way they wanna be loved! :)

I'll Be Alright!

Hello! :)

When there's life happening, I tend not to write!

I know I have been a bad bad girl! :P But, well just that!

When you meet people from your past, many things can happen - But the best feeling is when you know some things will never change. :)

And that's when it hits you - like a force of nature - that come what may - I'll be alright.

More details on this later - gotta work! I just wanted to save this feeling, for a later time when I need it! :D :D

Jaane Kyun Dil Jaanta hai, tu hai toh I'll be alright! :)

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Virtual Life!

Living at home has its pros and cons. I love my pros, and have been missing everything on the cons list.

In my last post, I had mentioned how I was on "pause." Meanwhile, an enlightenment took place. I began working with Bodhi . I began as a marketing manager, but also dabbled in HR, Admin, Training, Sales, CRM and Website changes. It felt like home, with a work force of around 20 people. It was like working in your own place, for your own people. Well, it was!

Then, VMware happened! The day of my interview was pretty interesting. I was at Bodhi, and had the interview scheduled for 3 p.m. which meant I had to leave office by 1:30. And the same day I was scheduled to take an interview at Bodhi, for a Business Development Executive. So, I sit with my darling Veena Pacchi for the interview, and together we take a very grueling interview for the Print Engineer who had about 5 years of work experience.

Half way through the interview, I had to leave, to be able to reach vmware on time. And all the way, the only thought on my mind was, wish I was easier on the person I just interviewed, because I didn't want Karma to play a spoilt-sport on my interview. And the Gods were listening. [Thank them for that!]

The interview went well, and after further rounds, I got the offer letter, a couple of weeks later.

Today I'm part of the vmware family, living the virtual life! 

When I was at crossroads in life, I saw this ad, and it was somewhat of an inspiration! The wordings more than the ad!

"I don't know where I'm going, but I like the direction!"

So, I'm still loving the direction. And am enjoying the beginning of my Virtual Life! Lets see where life takes me! My shoes are on, and I'm all set! Bring it on! :D :D

Mom n Me! My strength, my inspiration, my love n my life! 

Little things you Do!

I quit my job five months ago. Since then I've given a couple of Interviews and the status has been pending. From nowhere have I heard a negative response. Its just that the job market has kept me on hold. So, I am living life in 'pause' mode. Yes, the same pause you do while watching a movie on your laptop, and someone rings the doorbell and you pause the movie. Being an avid user of the VLC player, I just wish someone comeback from where they have me paused and press the "space bar" and un-pause me, rather play me! :P

And I, the queen of procrastination, have been postponing everything I want to do, to I will do it once I start working. And hence I'm not only on "pause" but I'm on enhanced pause [if there ever is anything like that]

Also, there is another important aspect where I am paused at, but that's not going on this blog!

So, shouldn't the title of this post be Pause?? No, because the title is "Little things you do."

Has this happened to you?? :)

Whenever dad comes back home from the clinic, one of us( me, mom or brother, whoever is available or all three) go out to open the garage door for dad to park the car, and just to say Hi, you were missed! or update him immediately with anything important that would have happened that evening. Off late, this is one of the things I'm doing most of the time, because in otherwise lack of work [:P] this is one thing I look forward to doing. [If i'm upset / angry / in the loo - mom goes to open the door.. ;) ]

So, its a whole procedure. The horn of his car is something that can wake us up even if we're in deep slumber, so when he honks when he's just a road away from home, everything at home has to come to a stand still. The TV is turned off, mostly after changing the channel to a discovery or a news channel because you don't want him to switch on the TV and find "Bade Acche lagte Hain" or Roadies or the like[depending on who's watching]! :P Then we rush out; say hiiiiiiiiii, till he says hi back, take the keys from him and run to the garage door. Then once he parks the car and gets down, we collect his bag and we look forward to gifts. He sometimes would get sweets or snacks for us, or he would get Compliments! He's a doctor, so medical reps give him compliments, some useful but mostly things which are of no use what-so-ever!

Off late the switch of the garage has been acting crazy. The first time I turned it on, the bulb just flashed light and turned off. I thought the fuse of the bulb is burnt, but when I retried it flashed like nothing was wrong.

This happened for a couple of days, and then one day when mom was switching it on, it didn't turn on at all! Mom tried over and over but nothing happened. So, the next day when I went to open the garage door, I slowly turned the light on, and in my first attempt it switched on and shone like the sun. I looked at dad immediately and saw him grinning. I did a victory dance on the road, till he parked the car! He got down smiling and I simply loved that feeling. Same thing happened the next day, and I continued with my victory dance even after I locked the garage door and the main door. But today, I tried, over and over, but to no avail. It was like jinxed, unrelenting and refusing to switch on!

Dad got down from the car and sweetly said, its ok its ok.. better luck next time. Like I had done badly in an interview. Both of us started laughing and neighbors were looking at us as if something was wrong with us. I know its a very small thing, but I haven't felt this happy in days. Its crazy how something so small, so unimportant could make me feel this way. They say God is in the Detail, and finding happiness in small small things is thousand times better than looking for Big happiness.

I may be on pause or play, but as long as I remember the essence of life is these small moments, when you laugh or cry or do both together, I know life will be good! :) :) :)

Dad Leaving for Clinic - :)

Flowers in the Mini-Garden at the entrance to my house. Another reason for my smiles, first thing in the morning! :)

The Japanese Wife

How far will you go for love?

I have no clue why I wanted to see this movie, but, as soon as I got my hands on my Bit Torrent, One of the first few movies I downloaded was The Japanese Wife.

I haven't read the book by Kunal Basu. All I knew about this movie was, it had Rahul Bose, Raima Sen and is directed by Aparna Sen. So, last night I sat to see The Japanese Wife!

A shy boy, Snehmoy(Rahul Bose), who later becomes an Arithmetic teacher, starts writing letters to a girl in Japan, Miyagi ( Chigusa Takaku). This girl is equally shy, and live with a ailing mother. Snehmoy lives with his maashi (Moushumi Chatterjee), after his parents' tragic death by the floods of the river Matla.

They start sharing small details of each other's lives through their many many letters. Miyagi sends pictures of herself, her pets, her house and sends a Poloroid Camera to Snehmoy, so that, he can do the same. From friends, their relationship blossoms to being bestfriends, and they do not see the necessity to socialize with local people as long as they have each other. Maashi, wanting to see her son happily settled, asks him to marry her god-daughter Sandhya(Raima Sen). When he mentions this to his beloved Miyagi, she proposes marriage even though they live in different parts of the world to make it sacred. Having his doubts initially, Snehmoy agrees to the marriage, and sends Miyagi Kumkum and Conch bangles, that denote a married Indian wife, and Miyagi sends a Silver ring inscribed with her name to him.

Years pass by, and neither visit each other, as they have responsibilities of their mother and maashi respectively.But the letters keep coming, filled with all the tiny details of each others daily life. Things start to change a little for Snehamoy, when his maashi's god daughter Sandhya, now a widow comes to live with them, with her 8 year old son, Poltu. Poltu, discovers Snehamoy's Kite collection, which was a gift from Miyage on their 15th Anniversary, and together, they decide to be a part of the Kite festival, where there develops a competition between the Indian Kites and the Japanese Kites.

This is a beautifully directed scene. The expressions on all the faces, the kites, the setting... everything about this scene is beautiful. Hats Off to Aparna Sen!!  

Then what happens is what I think everyone should see. It is such a well made movie. The emotions are so rich and overflowing on screen. To be able to love someone, and stay committed to that someone that too only in form of letters, and mere three phone calls over a period of five years of friendship and nearly seventeen years of marriage is commendable. As actors, all the characters are beautiful. The age and transition in each character is visible and well defined. How I wish I had seen this movie earlier. 

Can I apply any of this to my life? In a world of Skype, social networking and Sex and the City, to sustain a relationship as pure is a big challenge. Maybe that's why its a work of fiction, and not real life. 

If I had to rate this movie, I'd give it a 4 out of 5! 

That's how far I'd go, for The Japanese Wife! {Not, love!! ;) :P }

Oh, and before I forget, I updated my other home too!! :) HERE!!!!

Communication!

I started writing to express myself when I first moved out of Bangalore. Writing gave me a high that no amount of mood enhancers could induce.

I took up a project, and, did NOT do it completely. I was at crossroads, which didn’t allow me to express myself to even myself. Now that I am back in Bangalore, I decided to take this up, yet again.

And as Sundays usually are at the Mallar household, we all sat to watch –We the People on NDTV 24x7. The discussion was around Love and Sex and how it is portrayed in Hindi Cinema these days. The discussion from the TV set entered our living room, and took another form. We didn’t discuss love and etc. in Bollywood, but we did discuss how children should vs. could be raised.

I told dad that I was scared of the possibility, as kids today are at such an advanced state in every aspect. The good are getting better and the bad are getting worse.

Now, I tell my parents ALMOST everything. So, they usually know who I am out with, where I’m going and what I’d be doing. But that is not the scenario with kids these days. There is a mountain of lies that children tell their parents, and somewhere down the line the parent don’t even know their own children. Who they are, what they think, what they want etc… So, the children continue obliging their parents’ wishes and not voicing their own creating a wide gap.

I had been urging my dad to write and voice his thoughts and this is what he said:

" Communication between generations is very much needed which is not there in families these days. And that is the reason for a lot of discorded relations in families these days.  

People (kids, mainly) have developed a split personality within themselves.  Split personality in such a way that the line between the true self and the fake persona becomes a blur; because when the brain is told things repeatedly, it doesn't know which to believe as true or untrue. And that simply will pass on generation to generation. 

When there is true communication, both the parties (Parents & Children) will be aware of the whereabouts and happenings, and not much of guilt is involved. The younger generation will at least be liberated from the guilt of having to lie about who they are and moreover they will not succumb to worse measures in the hour of need.

Open communication between generations; for the older generation to guide, to show the pitfalls, so that the younger generation will always have a second opinion and a support system to live life the best way possible. 

Each person when expresses their true feelings will better the bonding and understanding between them. "

This last statement is true for any relationship to stand the test of time. Respect and love are shared and continuity is maintained. They say change is the only constant; and in this world where the changes are exponential; very few human relationships will stand the test of time.

So why not make these few relationships true and fun-filled? 

So, on this happier note, I just want to announce – I am BACK! Again! ;)

And this time, I won’t be just talking about things around me; I’ll be going a little deeper. Coz, I have dad by my side! J J

Write again soon!